Heartbreaker

I will never be good enough. 

I will never be pretty enough, even with the amount of make up I put every single fucking morning, the grueling sticking of fake eyelashes the pupil dilating contact lenses & the expensive hair clay I ruffle in my hair. I will never be prettier than some random fuck on the internet on facebook on tumblr on the magazines I will never be pretty enough as compared to my boyfriend’s & all my exboyfriend’s exgirlfriends & the girls they have a “thing” for I might as well go for permanent photoshop I will never be pretty enough for someone to ask me without wanting only my vagina. Maybe that’s because I’m too fucking fat with my belly & my double chin & my arms that fly in the wind because I actually have an appetite but no fucking way i’m now to fat to even drink water & I look awful in everything I wear I have spillage of my tummy my arms looks as though they swallowed a human fetus alive my feet are too big shoes look so fucking ridiculous on me & I burp too much & too loud & I’m not classy maybe that’s why NO FUCKING PERSON other than my exboyfriend who used to abuse me physically would take the effort to come down to see me when I’m CLEARLY upset because I am not important enough because I am not pretty enough, I’m not skinny enough, I’m not ladylike enough I will never be enough for anyone to want me back or chase me back they only want me for my double Ds & my vagina because apparently that’s what I’m only good for which is to potentially be a medium to get STDs from but no, no one has loved me for the whiny insecure selfish bitch I can be sometimes & when that whiny self comes up everyone runs away because a vagina is not supposed to talk when being fucked & like I said, that’s what I’m only good enough for. No one has bothered really knowing who I am & wanting me for that & no one has ever wanted me back & no one has me etached to their hearts because I am not pretty and skinny enough.

That was a good word vomit.

Fuck men. I’m going to earn so much money I can buy every miu miu bag in every colour at my fancy & buy all the prostitutes in the world & free them.